April 20, 2018

The First Job

I never thought I'd end up in an office. Waking up at the same time every day, going to the same place, doing the same things, getting back home, rinse and repeat. The soft noise of the AC for 8 hours each day, the same people, the same conversations... If you ask me, or rather if you had asked me a year ago, that's a recipe for disaster. Actually, I still believe it is. It's definitely not meant for everyone. I dread the thought of being stuck in a box for the rest of my life, in exchange for a paycheck every fortnight. Well, at least I got paid every fortnight.

So, why did I end up there? Bullshit. You know the drill. "You're not just an employee, you're part of us". "We're a team, we don't leave anyone behind". "This will be your 2nd family". "You'll grow with us". Gosh, I remember being much better at reading BS when it was thrown right at my face. A small action is worth more than the biggest intention.

But so I did, I bought the BS they were selling, I got an office job, a bit over a year ago. And I'll be honest here, it wasn't all too bad. Sure enough, there were times - a lot of times - when I was just about to say "Fuck this!" and be done with the whole thing, but I never quite did, and there must be a reason for that. I got used to the people - well, most of the people -, I got used to the chatting, gossiping and hanging out and, unbelievably, I got used to having lunch with others. Lousy, weird others. If there's a reason I stayed, it's because I made some friends there. Good riddance.

But now it's over. I got laid off, it was a startup and it was running out of money, and I was, well, the expendable part of the team. Truth be told, I always thought it was gonna end like that, thing is, they were a bit off target all the time, at least imho. It's like at a time they were trying to bite way more than they could chew, and the very next time they were playing the helpless underdog. To make a long story short, there was a lack of direction, and personnel. More often than not I felt like butter scraped over too much bread, less than ideal.
What's next? Well, if there was one thing I learned there is that I never want that again. But, I haven't been back to freelancing, I decided it's time to start my own business... And I've been working on that! Hard! I won't go into too much detail about it yet, cause the project is in Alpha phase, at best, but I'll surely make a post about it when it's ready for a Beta launch, so... Stay tuned!!!

I love you all, sorry for the lack of posts as of late!

Take care! See you in a bit!

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